Maybe This Will Save Me: A Memoir of Art, Addiction and Transformation (Original)

*An Autostraddle Most Anticipated Queer Book*

"I'm determined to get to know the real Tommy, to trace the shape of my scars."

For years, Tommy Dorfman turned her back on her thoughts and emotions, hoping they'd simply go away.

After a lifetime of confusion, she finally gained clarity around her gender and began to transition.

But there were still parts of herself she'd locked away, elements of her story that she needed, for the first time, to fully confront.

She sought guidance in a tarot deck.

Maybe This Will Save Me is structured through the cards of that tarot pull. The youngest of five children, she grappled with her own identity from an early age and spent her teenage years numbed by drugs and alcohol. At the same time, she harbored dreams of creative stardom and a desire to make herself seen. Charting her early struggles in theater, her rise to fame in 13 Reasons Why, her hard-fought journey to sobriety, and the relationships that shaped her, Maybe This Will Save Me is a luminously written, bracingly honest, and structurally audacious memoir of an artist whose vision transcends mediums.