In this raw and unflinching memoir, LLM lays bare a childhood forged in the crucible of poverty, abuse, and resilience in 1950s and 1960s America. Born into a welfare family with eleven siblings, she navigates a world of hand-me-down shame, emotional cruelty, and unrelenting hardship. From Salvation Army shoe shops to the chaos of a home marked by her mother's volatile relationships and her own abandonment in a toy wagon, her early years are a testament to survival against the odds. As trauma piles upon trauma-sexual assault, family betrayal, and the crushing weight of being told she's "no good"-she turns to alcohol to numb the pain, teetering on the edge of despair. Yet, from the ashes of a broken youth emerges a fierce determination to rewrite her story. This is a haunting, heart-wrenching journey of a young woman who dares to seek love and self-worth in a world that tried to strip her of both. A story of survival, redemption, and the unbreakable human spirit, this memoir will resonate with anyone who has ever fought to rise above their circumstances.