My Journey Through Shame: All I wanted was to love God and serve His children.

At seventeen, I felt the unmistakable touch of God-and with it, a divine calling that would chart the course of my life. But I never expected this path would lead me into a three-decade battle-not with sin or unbelief, but with shame. Shame not for what I did, but for who I was.
At the center was my sexual identity, the one thing I was told made me unworthy of God's love and unfit for His calling.
My Journey Through Shame is more than a memoir-it's a soul-deep confession, a spiritual odyssey through the parts of ourselves most people try to bury. It's the story of what happens when God's unmistakable calling collides with religious rejection. Of what it means to be anointed yet alienated. Gifted, yet deeply afraid.
I was raised in a world-and a church-that taught me to be ashamed of who I was, even as I tried to love the God who had clearly chosen me.
Through childhood trauma, religious indoctrination, spiritual awakenings, and undeniable encounters with the Divine, I lived suspended in a relentless tug-of-war between the voice of God's love and the voice of the church's condemnation. And for years, I believed the latter. I wore their shame like grave clothes. I buried myself under their judgments.
But God never left me there.
Across decades of wrestling, weeping, and walking through fire, I discovered something radical: in every season, I wasn't met with wrath, but with the fierce, unshakable love of a God who refused to let shame have the final word.
This book is for those who never fit the mold. For the judged and hated. For anyone who's been told they were too flawed to be used by God. It's for those carrying secret shame, aching not just for forgiveness but for freedom.
Because shame cannot survive where truth takes root.
And the truth is: You were never disqualified. You were never forsaken. You were never unworthy. Not for a single moment.